GENERAL INTRODUCTION TO THE KEY
First a general introduction on the Key.
In subsequent chapters, I will discuss all facets of the Key further.
The Key for me includes everything of importance in this time, where the world itself longs for, a new phase.
The Key fits everything that plays a role in this world, in the society. It is the answer to all questions. A great opportunity for a real change from within.
Because there is the Key waiting, inside, in our hearts. There lies true strength, true fullfillment, in the heart.
This is actually the core of the Key, it begins inside.
The change, the opportunity, the ability, the fulfillment.
From within the change will take place.
Transformation, conversion.
Inside is something, what most people do not comprehend, but is imperishable and untouchable. What remains equel to itself, which is true Love that wants to bloom, grow inside ourselves, and so may reveal itself in the outside world.
ROOM FOR THE KEY
The times we live in now, where the dogmatic systems have collapsed. The churches have collapsed. The outer believes, religions and churches deflated. Or other dogmatic systems like communism.
Everything that we are lived by the system but nog actually live ourselves. That we are going to discover who we are, in our deepest inner self. Something wants to reveal itself, become visible what is from another world, of an entirely different order. This is the Key.
Therefore if the Key can be integrated within society, then our lives will truly make sense, then we can call ourselves really a society. A true society, together on the way to something else, something essential.
Together helping eachother, inspire eachother. Together going through the darkness to the Light. Eternal Light. Then This can reveal itself through us, start to radiate. That what we really are, our Essence.
The Key is urgently needed. In all the questions that now confuse us, we become more and more hungry for answers.
Those answers can be found in the Key, a compact formula that fits on everything, open all the doors, all the questions that society has.
That compact formula I give you now, step by step, every line of it contains so much. The Key can transform all levels of society. Healthcare, how we look at education, general our culture, the mass-media, life and death, everything.
TIme for the Key. It is urgent. Without the Key, we risk loosing ourselves in everything. We cross borders. Time for reflection, time for a change in attitude, creating a New World that emerges from within. A New Human, when the Key will be applied so the New Human can rise from within!
THE KEY
Life is all about self-knowledge.
Discover what you really are.
Precisely disease, conflict, disharmony, can be a possibility to get connection with this.
Through the darkness to the Light.
Ultimate happiness can never be found outside yourself.
What you really are is not of this world.
Everyone lives in his/her believe/mind system and attrect what they need, what is needed.
Everyone has inside a Divine Spark.
This speaks through Conscience in all your mishaps.
In Connection you more and more can discern what is Truth and what not.
The Truth is timeless and Universal.
When the Spark inside grows Truth can slowly radiate through your whole being.
Then you are Free!
Living from the Essence you are connected and in harmony with the Universe, with everything.
Lifde is Eternal.
Death is only a transition.
THE KEY
More and more the experience taught me that there is something in me that I can rely on and more and more I surrendered to this. Something that really Knows.
That Connection which is in the heart is for me the core of the Key. Without that Connection, nothing is possible.
The Key is my life. That Key I want to present to you and explain further what the significance is of this Key. What the possibilities are. The area of new life and experiences that be found in the Key. That it may find entrance in the society, in the world.
It is up to you and me, in all that is happening in the world.
What is your answer to this?
This is my contribution, my idea of what this time asks, what this time longs for, to enter a new phase.
It is time for the Key!
THE WORLD
But yes, I continued to feel a great commitment to everything that happened in the world. It was completed in myself, but the world was still the same.
Major focus on the integration of spirituality in society has always been there for me. I did not want to become an island. I felt it concerns us all.
I have undertaken lots of activitities in my life, but the core that always came back to me was the importance of integration. A call to society to stand together for the Key. Intitally it did not have such a concrete form but this has slowly grown.
During that time I came in contact with many, many, groups, and have activily participated in it. But more and more I had to come to the conclusion that real grounded spirituality was only minimally present.
I quicly pulled apart the New Age and real spirituality, esoteric Knowledge. I did nog feel such a commitment to the New Age.
What I offer is not something about technology, methodology, exercises, but only a very conscious life, taking responsibility for that life. That has been my life. I have never meditated, never done yoga, never followed any method or guru.
FEMININITY
More and more, over the years, I had to realize that it is not zo obvious to live from the heart.
Actually, we should be re-educated so that we can get in touch with that heart. Because the Key can only be alive through the heart. That is where it starts.
I’ve always been very feminine and very sensitive. Also I found women much more attractive. I have found little identification with what a man is. And actually this still the case. The cliche man, I find absolutely no inspiration and recognition in; nor the macho man or the intellectual.
No, a man is only interesting for me if he is open to his feminine side, that he has an open heart.
In that sense women are the future because on average they are much more in touch with their heart. The Heart in the heart. Consciousness, Knowledge from the Heart.
That has been my Path to bring on earth the living Knowledge of the Heart in all that I am from head to toe.
HARMONY
To the outside world, changes in me became increasingly visible.
First there were still conflicts but because the inner conflict was solved more and more the conflicts around me disappeared more and more. Through insight and understanding, harmony and peace came inside and this was reflected around me.
Also very important, there was eventually nothing left I had to prove, so the urge disappeared.
Really, everything is energy, I radiated something and I got it back. And that mirror has become more and more harmonious.
A very important part of the Key is that it is about the road not the end result. That it is about your intention, and you may make mistakes, missteps. I have made many mistakes and missteps, but by facing everything, feeling it, everything could heal, be made whole again.
The Key means to give eachother space in this process.
GROUND
After that turning point of course it was not finished. In all layers it wanted to be grounded, the Connection which I had made inside. That in all facets of my being, Love, Light, and Consciousness could penetrate, could fertilize, and could convert everything.
The early stages were very vulnerable.
For example, I lived by myself, but in between I came home on weekends. And then it seemed like I had not changed, everything seemed the same. They still saw as that sad, depressed boy in me. I was completely sucked back into that energy. When they saw me, they saw me with the eyes of the past. They did not see me as I am; they saw me how I was.
It has taken time to change that. That more and more became visible: “Gee, Carl has really changed, he is really very happy now, what is going on here?”
BREAKTHROUGH
After that break-through I wrote a poem describing well this big change.
Before that change, I was very angry with my father, I hated him, even wanted him dead. But I had no defense, could not build myself an armor, so that was a very important breakthrough.
Now we are best friends with each other, I respect him totally; all uncertainty and tension are gone.
Now the poem:
A POSSIBILITY
Over.
Gone are the days of passing by.
Ignore what lies deeply hidden.
Forced by circumstances to stop.
Truth shows its face.
Darkness exposed to the Light.
But all this is no judgement.
Judgement with condemnation and guilt.
Only that was hidden is revealed.
Clearness.
The fog lifts.
Everyone and everything is involved.
Crystal clear, not glass hard.
What is confusing is unraveled.
Patient, what was hard is softened.
With courage, everything is possible.
Many revealations, everything that happens is good.
Unravel the knot.
Freedom is not for sale.
Life is a choice, prison or freedom.
You decide where the road leads.
Background becomes foreground.
Past, long ago, suffered is reflected in the present.
A child is in pain, sadness.
The door closed.
Alone, cold, deserted.
Surfaced away, left alone.
Locked up.
Many invisible tears are shed.
The Key is hidden.
Open the door.
The Key is you.
Let the light stream in.
The child is afraid, does not dare to come out.
Take it gentle by the hand, because it can still fall.
Catch it with understanding.
It is not the fault of the child if it falls.
It is not the fault of the parents if it falls.
The child falls….. but catch it with understanding.
Understand.
The child is very vulnerable.
Protect it with love.
Do not crush it under guilt/judgement.
Understand that you determine the life of the child.
Now this moment.
Do not crush it, because it will run back again.
It will close the door.
Safe inside, protected from everything outside.
Therefore take it by the hand.
Prepare the way, see all the connections.
Solve the riddles.
understand the pitfalls.
Heal what is broken.
Build bridges over ravines.
Be light in darkness.
Unmask the illusions that seem the truth.
Does the child have a question, find out what the answer is.
Are security.
Let it crawl into your arms of trust.
Until……
You can let the child go.
Fearlessly and joyfully let it cavort in life.
It is free.
You liberated it, it has freed you.
What happened, you can now forgive with your total being.
You are the child, the child is you.
There is no goodbye.
MY FATHER
For that matter, even in my student days- I had already broken my study to become a teacher and began a new school.
I could hardly look at people, dared not to look at them. At this new school to become a social worker I had an internship.Then my supervisor said: “is not the reason that you dare not look at anybody, that all eyes connect you with your father who looked at you with penetrating eyes, for example, when you had done something wrong”?
That proved to be on target. Since then, I can look at anyone without a problem.
At first I also met my father everywhere in the outside world. Everywhere where I had trouble with authority, felt insecure with authoritarian people and stuff. Everywhere, aspects of my father became visible.
A very big break-through was the fact that I could come to true forgiveness. I eventually understood that my father was a very insecure, vulnerable boy, but then he had hardened and thus made himself untouchable with all the consequences.
THE HEART
An important aspect in all of this is that I am a heart-person and always was. That has always been very natural to me living from the heart. I found little support from my mind. I was and am in that knowledge not very intelligent.
Also I could never build a wall around me, or put a mask on, because the feeling of my heart was too powerful. Thus, I was also very vulnerable to everything that came to me. I had no defense against this. So, I was a period very uncertain, also because of the upbringing of my father.
My father was actually the biggest challenge of my life. He was not really a contributing factor in my confidence and believe in myself. He was very focussed on performance; I had to prove myself otherwise I was nothing. I was never good enough.
An important aspect of this was that I have a disability from birth; a paralysed arm, my left arm, because it got stuck during birth.
I then had a lot of physical therapy and trips to the masseuse. And yes, I was really pushed by my father, always compared to others, how good they were. He could akso make me feel very humiliated, very small, very guilty.
VISION
I have already written very much. But the stage which comes now, after my understanding, was initiated by a vision-like text.
A kind of reflection of what would happen and actually a summary of what I came here for.
This text came from a very deep layer, just suddenly.
VISION MARCH 1987
Loveliness, warmth, kindness.
Inner peace, tenderness,
flow through my heart.
No desire.
No confusion.
A flowerbud in me burst open.
Slowly a love-radiating flower flourishes.
Life is filled with intimacy, depth, the essential.
Went to the core,
The true Being of my life.
An intimate entanglement with dear friends.
Each energizing, we sow the love radiating seed,
from which once, beautiful flowers will spring.
Full of love, we will embrace eachother.
We will dance,
ont the sound,
that is welling inside.
Our love will bring more and more seeds to develop.
More and more heartts will be filled with Love.
Eyes will be be opened for the Being of life.
From confusion and despair arose Love.
Love for the world.
Love for the people.
Opening hearts.
Planting seeds.
Light heat, for the unfurling of seeds.
Breaking rigidity.
Growing sunbeams to set the world in a glow.
Cramped temper, hatred, transformed into openess and Love.
Everyone dances to the music that emanates from their own hearts.
But they get not tired.
Their heart gives them strength.
Strength to be a child again.
Strength to be themselves again.
Strength to be free again.
After that my life came into an accelerated change.
When I was 24 years old, I went into an intense phase of about 3 years where I’ve gone through the darkness to the Light under the direction of the Light.
Relatively easy I could get rid of everything I was stuck to, what I did not understand, what I was angry about, sad.
By seeing it, really Seeing through it, this all disappeared.
I had to go cross through it, through the pain, the despair, and the sadness. I felt everything. I denied nothing. I never could do that. I had to go through it, otherwise I could not continue.
This is an important aspect of the Key. Everything dissolved into this understanding and dit not return.
So, I became emptier and emptier of myself and more and more filled with….
Yes, with what? God, the Christ Consciousness, my Essence.
Everybody will have a different word for it.
BACKGROUND OF THE KEY
My Path has led me through many changes in my life, I went through al lot.
Very early on, I had a major involvement in what happened in the world.
First I experienced a very happy childhood. But when I was around my twelfth/thirteenth year, in al way I woke up. I looked around and felt that there is something wrong. Basically there is something wrong. But whatever it was, I did not know it then.
Rapidly I came into the counter-movement. Because the world made me determined and not indifferent. There was a great sadness about what was happening in the world: wars, misery, poverty, injustice, racism, you name it. It was full of permissiveness and I could nog pass it up.
So, very fast I was in that counter-movement. First against nuclear weapons, later against apartheid in South Africa; later against sexism and racism. Yes, I was really a protester. I participated in many protests at that time, the early 80s.
But as I said I was not noncommittal. This was my life and I wanted answers to my questions about all the misery around me. Why are people doing this? Where was the love, purity, authenticity?
With this feeling I lost myself in music and I was singing in several bands. Well, it was more screaming, crying, all the despair, sadness and anger coming out.
The few gigs we had were truly shock therapy for those who were present. No pose, no mannerism. On stage I was said and I showed all my pain and despair. I cried out, rolled on the ground. Why, why, why? Where is the love? What is this world?
A few texts I wrote at the time tell enough I think:
SAD
I’m sad.
People shooting eachother
I’m sad
Money is the ruler
I’m sad
The world will explode.
So do something about it.
Be one and fight
Fight this fucking world.
Make it worth existing.
But
I’m still sad.
Because this is a dream.
It won’t happen
I’m sad.
Why are people changing
Love is gone
Tenderness is gone
I won’t change.
Fight this world alone.
Kagib
Recently I did an AI version with these lyrics which expresses very well how i felt
And a second song:
YOU
Tension everywhere.
Always have to proof yourself.
Act like al fool,
Then you are popular.
Never showing own feelings,
Never showing your inside.
Afraid to be you
You will be cast out,
Cause own feelings are not allowed.
You don’t belong to them.
Only show your ‘good’ sides.
Make profit of that
Never showing own feelings.
Never showing your inside
Afraid to be you.
Kagib
These questions pressed me more and more. I became more and more depressed, everything was dark and gloomy. There was no light. I sank further and further away and I saw no more perspective.
More and more I realised, I fight only against symptoms, it solves nothing. Eventually I could not bear it, endure it anymore. If then would’nt have come an answer, sooner or later I would have commited suicide of would have ended in an asylum.
TURNAROUND
The answer did come, namely in a book. What book it was I do not know, but the foundation in my experience is still the same as the message in the book:
Change begins within, peace begins within. First fight the inner war. Only then the war outside will fade out. There is something inside that Knows!
So, a foundation was laid for what later would be the Key. It was a re-recognition. Something I already knew, but had to be touched again, excited; awakened.
CHAPTER 1 SELF-KNOWLEDGE
I would like to reflect on the Key step by step, together with you.
I start with a fundamental aspect, the first two lines:
LIFE IS ABOUT SELF-KNOWLEDGE
UNCOVERING WHAT YOU REALLY ARE
This includes so much.
Most people do not know what I am talking about. What I am now that is what I am this cannot change. Oh yeah, I’ve learned in school, I have received some education from my parents. That is what I am.
No, mostly then you have lost yourself, who you really are.
Certainly it is true that there are many people who have never been in touch with who they really are. They have other life-lessons to learn.
That is ok. But at some point there will come oppertunities to apply the Key.
Then you can start to discover who you really are.
BIRTH
The Key could be used from birth.
What is inherited when a child is born?
Almost always the experiences of the parents, what the parents inherited. What they learned from their parents. What they inherited from the culture in which they lived and live.
Longer time ago this was much more influenced by religion.
No room to discover who you really are.
Almost always the parents do not know themselves.
Almost always there are vicious circles. This is how it is because this is what is taught to me.
But often what is taught is distorted.
These are all clichés. But clichés are many times truth.
“I’ve never gotten the chance to do what I wanted so I give my children the oppertunity the education to do it”.
Many times frustrations, traumas are passed on.
But almost always unconsciously, not knowing any better.
There is no other way to do it, this is life.
This is because real Consciousness is not integrated in the world. There are very few examples where there is room for this. So everything goes on as it is.
It is not about self-knowledge in the world, within the society, it is about completely different things.
Very different things are given. Much more in the sense of: You must be like this, don’t show to much who you really are, what you really feel, be normal. Be like everybody else.
And what if everybody is crazy.
When everybody is crazy this doesn’t become visible.
CRAZY
Actually I see the world as a little bit crazy. But this doesn’t show, because everyone is crazy. Because it is told, how it is now, where life revolves around now, this is it, this is not crazy. So everyone is doing his best to be like that.
But all this is totally relative and no one has that in mind. Because an alternative is barely visible.
Wherever it is a bit visible, they say: “They are crazy, you should not take them too seriously. Those are in the clouds boasting about spirituality and self-discovery. Maybe a nice hobby, but then back to the order of the day.
In such a world a child is born.
NEWBORN
There it is a new citizen of the earth. Whether it is a clean slate with which the child is born, the opinions are divided. But anyway, the baby was initially very pure and very open and very vulnerable. It is said that the first five years of a child determine the rest of its life.
And what is given to this child?
Of course, it will be coddled. “Oooh sweet child, he can already say mom, dad, what a sweetheart. He looks exactly like his father, mother, his grandfather”.
In a reasonable harmonious family, the child is completely pampered.
But even then, everything has a big influence. The child can’t talk the first years, but feels a lot, sees a lot, although it cannot analyse yet what all this is. It feels the energy in the air, feels the unspoken things.
Therefore, there can be a lot of confusion, dependency.
And what do we give that child in his early life so short on this earth?