ABOUT MYSELF

As an introduction, I give some information about myself.
This has been the core of my life, through the darkness to the Light.
Under the direction of the Light.

When I went that Path it seemed obvious, that’s life.
But I found out that this is not obvious at all.
We want to deny the darkness or make something different from it or rise above it. We say it doesn’t exist, it is an illusion, it will pass by.

I could never do this, so I had to go right through it. Straight through my pain, sadness, helplessness.
But because of this I Know that the following is Truth.

Precisely disease, conflict, disharmony van be an oppertunity to connect to That what you really are.
Through the darkness to the Light.

This is totally opposite to how we generally deal with life.
We do not want to experience, deal with inner darkness.
We want this do disappear as quickly as possible.
We want to supress darkness and become numb.
We flee from pain, confusion, sadness and anger.

We do not want to feel what is going on inside of us.
I am not talking about letting out anger, sadness and so on just like that. That happens a lot unconsciously, without us doing something about it, we just let it erupt, get out flow out.

But we do not want to reflect on our emotions, to really see, feel what goes on inside of us. We want it to disappear as quickly as possible.
Or we say, this is who I am, deal with it. You must take me as I am.

A GREY CLOUD COVER

What is shared before has a nice connection with the weather.
When everything is grey outside, the sun can not get through. Everything is covered with a large blanket of clouds where no glimmer of light can pass through. Then everything is very dull and dreary.

This way it is often in our lives, although we think we live in the light and are happy. But the true Inspiration of the Divine Sun inside, the true Light within ourselves can’t get through.

This way everything stays in a same pattern of life; there is no room for the true Light of genuine understanding.
This way we remain trapped inside ourselves, live in a very narrow context, boxed in, very small circles mostly vicious circles in which we live.

We can’t see outside this context outside the box. We deny this, don’t want to see beyond.
Still there is endless space outside our perspective, but we close our eyes for this.This perspective stays hidden if we do not want to see.

SUN BREAKS THROUGH

So, when that grey cloud cover breaks open and the sunrays get through, then we get an completely different sight.
Everything looks much more radiant in the play of light and shadow. The clouds so beautiful when the grey cloud cover is broken with endless forms and expressions.

The same with life. When the Divine Sun can radiate through us, that it can break through our inner darkness so we start to understand the meaning of the clouds we made. That nothing is wrong with what is inside, what is living inside. It just wants to be seen to be felt to be freed. It wants to be transformed so we can heal inside, that we understand, we Know. A new Force is awakened.

What is becoming increasingly common is that we numb everything with medicine, supress everything with this. We do not want to see, to feel, we just want to live our life. But in this we don’t want to feel pain, confusion and sadness. We want it to disappear as soon as possible.

But if you dare to feel, dare to sense the pain, sadness, despair, anger. Then the Light may shine on it, shine through it. That we more and more understand what is going on, the meaning of everything.

In this understanding darkness will dissolve. We understand more and more why everything is as it is why we act like we act that we created our own life. It wanted to tell us something, all that came on our path.

The world around us triggers something, awakens something inside. This has meaning, it is a sign, it wants to be seen.
And when it is seen then it will disappear more and more life becomes light, feeling the Light inside.

And so again the connection with the sun and the clouds, the clouds will disappear more and more. And finally the Divine Sun remains, or some soft white clouds irradiated by this DIvine Sun.